Monday, July 16, 2007
"Bird Lady"
The pale yellow house
down the street
reminds me of the bird lady’s
that lived next door to me
when I was a child.
She always glared,
lurking in the shadows,
ready for children to disturb
her domain of unkempt lawn,
chain link fence
encased the yard,
ravaged with tendrils
of roses and raspberries gone wild,
reaching out to passers by
for help, salvation,
trees and shrubs overgrown
filling all the spaces
grass used to be,
slender concrete paths
lead to the back door
end fragmented into shards.
It is inaccessible
just as she is,
barricaded by ivy
creeping across the breadth
at various tangents,
green, woody fingers
binding the knob like a python.
Aleathia Drehmer 2006
"By Way of Arkansas"
Her face is burnt and peeling
from hours in the hot sun
slathered in baby oil.
She talks real tough
with a jaunty fa-get-ah-bout-it attitude.
“Oh yeah,” she says,
“I’d do it again”
as she lightly strokes her wrist
wrapped in pristine gauze.
When she thinks
no one is watching
the truth unfolds,
and the darkness wraps her
with its barbed wings.
Tears well in her eyes
running her thick, black mascara
down her burnt cheeks
adding insult to her injury.
Aleathia Drehmer 2006
Published by Haggard & Halloo 12/06
"Strand"
One strand
of your golden hair
upon my arm
draws my flesh to rise.
It is provocative
like a mistress
interfering with a life
already established.
Its’ delicacy
tips the balance
of good and evil
within me,
where I stand
feels undetermined.
Aleathia Drehmer 2006
Published by Laura Hird Spring Showcase 2007
"Cyclamen"
The rotting Cyclamen
from Valentine’s Day
still sits
in the middle of the table
with its shiny pink paper.
Leaves desiccating
before my eyes;
Once swollen ovaries withering,
shrinking with the onset of age
like a vegetative menopause.
Stems twisted awkwardly,
dangling like broken necks
in a tight noose,
hanging limply over the potter.
All life gone except one pink flower.
Aleathia Drehmer 2006
Published by Laura Hird Spring Showcase 2007
"Cigar"
He pulls long and hard
on a sweet cigar,
the smell hanging stiffly
between his yellow, stained fingers
gripping me as I pass.
It reminds me of people
I no longer know or see,
reminds me of things
I can no longer remember clearly.
The smoke rises
around his sagging flesh
enticing the wisps of smoke
to cling to his jowls.
Gray hair is flattened
upon his balding head,
greasy and badly combed
like a winding, downhill highway.
His back is hunched,
the frame of his body
rigidly twisted
in front of the Episcopalian church.
He is teetering on the curb
like the memories
teetering in my head
as he waits for something
that cannot be given.
Aleathia Drehmer 2006
Published by Laura Hird Spring Showcase 2007
"To The Wind"
Fresh night air
slaps me across the face
stepping through the back door
into the rain soaked alley,
reminding me
of how you breeze
in and out
of these wet days
a rustling of leaves,
a lilting feather
and each breath with you
tastes of cherry blossoms,
each breath with you
effortless and calm
willing me to turn
face to the wind.
Aleathia Drehmer 2006
"Positions"
I.
I was prettier, sexier then,
and used my beauty
like a siren to devour men
I thought I wanted.
I put myself
into increasingly
precarious positions.
I took chances
with my body
that I would not take
today.
II.
Out in the night alone
like a Gemini
half excited, half depressed;
Sauntering slowly
on the dark side of the street,
listening to the sound
of my heels
clicking in time,
on the sidewalk
to the rise and fall
of my breath.
My perfume swirling
like a tendril of smoke,
infused with the pungency
of the vintage suede jacket
I wore while looking
for trouble.
III.
I felt isolated
sitting at the bar
drinking beer as dark as his skin.
I could feel him
stealing glances at me,
noticing the hem
of my dress
mounting my thigh,
diaphanous and white.
I could feel his stare
so intent that
I knew I sat there
in the bar
suddenly naked.
IV.
His apartment scattered
with candles, incense,
smooth jazz
hung my thoughts
suspended in the air.
Hearing him speak,
but not hearing his words
as he slid the heels from my feet,
as he slid the stockings
from my thighs,
as his oppression
hovered over me;
thinking “He is twice my size,
strong as an ox.”
Thinking
“How will I get out of this one?”
V.
The fiendish look
on his face
had a sobering effect.
My mouth started
making sounds,
and spewing proclamations
of shame and blame.
He looked bewildered
as I inched my way
from under his chest,
more bewildered
as I put on my heels
leaving the stockings
on the floor
like the shed skin
of a sidewinder.
I grabbed my coat
and slithered out the door.
VI.
I walked the dark streets again,
this time not knowing
where I was,
or how to get home.
I no longer felt powerful.
The weight of my
stupidity numbed me,
embarrassed me,
and the only living soul
on the street
was a menacing man
with a stare worse
than the one I just escaped.
I asked him,
“Where do I catch the 15?’
He pointed across the street
and smiled as if he had a secret
that I didn’t want to know.
VII.
3 am I made it home
to the boarding house
of transplanted strangers,
my family,
with feet sore, ego wounded.
Roger waited up for me,
knowing me better these days
than I know myself,
and I slipped into bed with him,
into something safe and easy,
and devoured him instead.
Aleathia Drehmer 2006
Published by Zygote in My Coffee #78
"Construction"
Hips form a bridge
spanning a river,
constructed tenuously,
easily destroyed
by the body
in undulating waves.
Nerves electric
contorting limbs in seizure,
brain losing
all control of its kingdom,
breath stutters,
indecisive about the future
of inhaling and exhaling.
The freedom of chaos,
for however brief,
intoxicates me, life affirmed in
a reality fragmented
and hallucinatory.
Calm washes in with
the high tide
receding undetected,
breath lightens,
limbs loosen,
heartbeat softens,
until I am gone.
Aleathia Drehmer 2006
"Loose Netting"
My limbs slide
through the water
without resistance,
tepid waves
swallow me
in a vacuum
of fragile
braided reflections
as my face
submerges the surface,
water filling the crevices
of my body
like whispers.
I think of
your grasping hands
like loose netting
slipping over
my flesh
as I sink
to the bottom.
Aleathia Drehmer 2007
"Tectonics"
When he cries
the soft bones
of his skull,
not yet connected,
shift and heave
in human
plate tectonics,
the ocean his skin,
the waves his fine hair,
his tiny fingers
clutching at my hand
like a seabird
fishing the surface
of choppy waters.
Aleathia Drehmer 2007
"Curled"
She is 98 going on 50
and I am changing
her back into her clothes
for discharge home.
We chat about
remembering not to take
too many of her new pills
without talking to the doctor,
as she rests a hand
upon my forearm,
her touch light and feathery
with fragile, thin skin.
I look into her eyes
find the edges reddening
brim with sad tears
on the brink of spilling.
She tells me she doesn’t
understand why sickness
has found her family
so late in her life.
She grips me now
with tiny fingers,
speaking of her son
curled in a bed from stroke,
how he had never
hurt anyone in his life
to deserve such an end,
such a fate.
There is nothing I can say
so I start to cry,
place my hand upon
her brittle, gray hair
sliding it down
until is rests upon
her cheek to catch
the tear that got away.
Aleathia Drehmer 2007
"Jesus Has Dancing Girls"
Jesus
has dancing girls
and cheesy
used car salesmen
in his godly employ.
“Listen here folks”
Cadillac man says,
on center stage
with heavenly
gyrating nymphs,
“Jesus loves YOU
more than your parents,
more than your children,
even more than your spouse.”
My husband looks at me,
sideways glance,
eyebrow raised
as if to inquire
about my extra-marital
affairs,
“With Jesus?”
I reply out loud
with a wild laugh,
“Most definitely.”
Aleathia Drehmer 2006
"Transfiguration"
My fingers slide over
the control panel, grazing
velvet leaves the color of
dove’s wings, softer than
a rabbit ear,
and I
am
released
by
a perfect bundle of dried
lavender tied heartily in
shiny, silver-spun ropes,
heaven drifting upward to my face,
and I am
lead
to
bliss
by
translucent red and blue
beads strung together in a
child’s Morse code on fanciful
plastic strings, dots and dashes
picking up stray shafts of light,
and I
am
illuminated
by
perfectly spaced garnet-colored
jewels traced with antique loops
of wire, curved and swaying like
the hips of a Spanish lady,
draped in sweet silence, black lace
fan over lips to hide a smile,
and I
am
exhilarated
by
a shred of frayed purple
silk ribbon fashioned to the
steering wheel, a string for
remembering that my fingers find
blindly, giving to twist
then turn at the sight of something
beautiful rising out of sadness,
and I
am.
Aleathia Drehmer 2007
"Hungry Ghosts"
We are full
of hungry ghosts and
long hours divided
into silence,
chanting
and prostrations
to drive them out.
Gods
levitate above trees
parallel to the earth,
our feet buried in deep
to feel the transfer
of pure electricity.
We gather their treasures
with an unknowing greed,
eyes shifting sideways
watching and coveting,
as if we have found
something worth hiding.
Reticent hands
dig into loam,
moist and intoxicated
with recycled life
quick and with precision.
We lay on the ground in it.
Our lungs fill but stay empty.
Secrets are pushed in knolls
of shaming trees,
tucked under dark roots
lifting upward from burgeoning
rock formations and time,
until we no longer
feel the weightof our hunger.
Aleathia Drehmer 2007
Published by The Beatnik 2/08
"Zephyr"
Noises from the street
filter through the
crack in the doorjamb,
Turkish melodies entice
cups from saucers to lips.
My tea smells
sweet with licorice,
a slow moving zephyr
beneath my nose
erasing the harsh
decomp of the city.
Each sip
stronger than the last,
autumn colored elixir
brimming in unflawed
white stone
like an orgasm.
The ecstasy of it
surges my brain
with memories,
some floating back
a delicious
whispering in my ear,
some stabbing in
with the taste of nightmares.
Aleathia Drehmer 2007
"No Railings"
Down a country road
that follows the bank
of a stream,
I am balancing on a bridge
only two feet wide
with no railings.
I see you,
face sweet, sun-kissed
hazy in the distance
body twitches in sleep
with the old porch chair
rocking gently,
seeds of trees
with bits of tuft
float passed me
in the slow heat,
igniting a feeling
in the depths of me
setting this bridge on fire.
Aleathia Drehmer 2006
"Evidence"
Hairs pulled from root
in five different places,
inside of cheek
scraped with a cardboard blade
ten times,
sterile swab run between tooth
and gum, back and forth
five times,
body inspected for bruises,
scratches, human bites,
pubic hairs plucked
and combed onto white papers,
secret places that were taken
cultured for seeds, bringing tears,
and memories best forgotten.
Story replayed by voice, in mind
for nurse,
for counselor,
for doctor,
for investigator
until the story turned
into a lonely nightmare.
Aleathia Drehmer 2007
"Dashboard"
19 years
I’ve lived on this earth,
the last six of them
spent in mental
copulation,
turning over instances
of cupped breasts,
dry fucks, and
French kisses,
hands on the small
of my back
passing workers
in the hot, cramped kitchen,
backed against
parking garage walls
under the stairwell
legs draped over hips,
fingers parting lips,
dorm room blow-jobs,
late night phone sex
in soft voices, hushed
so parents didn’t overhear,
have all brought me
to the crowning jewel
with feet planted
on the dashboard
in the passengers seat, reclined
tucked on a dirt road
after humanities class,
bodies sweating,
yours more than mine,
and I am distracted
by the fact
that everything
that came before this moment
impressed me
more than this.
Aleathia Drehmer 2007
Published by Cause & Effect 1/08
Friday, July 13, 2007
"Aperature"
The furrow
of a young man’s back,
created as he
leans down deep
onto his haunches
giving rise to
knolls and vale
of thick flesh,
amplifies the cadence
of my heart
at the witnessing
of strength,
of elongated muscles
bound to a human capacity
to be stripped
and studied
without recognition,
the camera
in my eye
snaps a thousand
instances of light,
shadow, and depth
to lock away
into the recesses
of my desire for
a time when there is
nothing left.
Aleathia Drehmer 2007
Published by Flutter 7/07
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